Stuck

My head is spinning
No one thought is winning
I'm stuck

Stuck in a cycle
From convos to recitals
I need help

Help with my thought process
Before I yet again regress
Please

Please make it all stop
I'm going down like a drop
Take me away

Away from this madness
Anxiety and unending sadness
It's too much

Too much for me to bare
These thoughts I can't even share
When will it
End

Psalm 27:14

14 Hope in Jehovah; Be courageous and strong of heart. Yes, hope in Jehovah.

Isaiah 65:21-23

21 They will build houses and live in them, And they will plant vineyards and eat their fruitage. 22 They will not build for someone else to inhabit, Nor will they plant for others to eat. For the days of my people will be like the days of a tree, And the work of their hands my chosen ones will enjoy to the full. 23 They will not toil for nothing, Nor will they bear children for distress, Because they are the offspring made up of those blessed by Jehovah, And their descendants with them.

Baby Oli, I'm Sorry

My stomach's churning

The wheels in my mind won't stop turning

Just want it out of my head

I know something should be said

If I do you won't be in my life

If I don't I'll live with much strife

How can I not, it's not fair

He would never hurt a single hair

How could I live with myself

I have to stand up for him better than he could himself

This whole thing's not fair

But they took it there

I have to be a good example

Because apparently in your life those won't be ample 

They'll deprive us of each other

Even though I'm your grandmother

I want to keep you near

Where do I go from here